🌸🎪 today I got my first tattoo!(please do not tell my father;A; he absolutely hates tattoos and told me I was never allowed to get one and will be so upset with me if he ever found out… I was thinking a long time if I should actually go through with this or not…)
But this is probably going to be the most important meaning full tattoo I’ll ever get and I’m so happy it’s my first one and it’s on my body forever! ଘ꒰๑॔˃̶ ॢᴗ ॢ˂̶๑॓꒱༚ୡ*‧ I was also debating wether or not I should actually share the whole store behind it with you guys but I will~ 🎪 okay so the main reason why I got this done is because I absolutely love doll from Noah’s ark circus and they have been such a huge part of mine and Ethan’s lives. Since I was 14 I remember reading about them in the manga and I just fell in love! Then ethan and I applied to volunteer at a local haunted house and it was circus themed and everything >v< I just cannot explain how much they mean to me and I love them. When I was ever upset or anything just in general we’ve spent so many nights of jr high role playing the circus and just making up headcanons and fck I sound so stupid but they’re so beautiful. 🎀 moving on to Doll. Doll is my most favourite character ever because while I was reading it, we were the same age. At first I could identify so much with freckles and he was my favourite part of the circus but then I found out that freckles and doll are the same person I honestly got so upset. I was so similar to freckles and I hated anything “feminine” or “pretty”. I wanted to be a boy, I wore boy clothes, cut my hair, acted more ‘masculine’.I wanted to live as a boy, but I wasn’t 100% set on that feeling so I was so confused. But now that I’m older, I have a new side to me and I love pretty things and such, just like the doll side of freckles. They taught me to be happy and accept who I am, and that it’s okay to have two sides to someone. It’s perfectly fine for me one day to feel that of a male, and the next feel like I want to be more feminine . They’re also the first character I’ve ever seen use they/them pronouns.(which is my pronouns :> )💕 ———> please continue reading underneath! (at **may contain a few spoilers )
I have the little circus tent there because of Noah’s ark circus, but it’s actually the sentimental circus tent! To represent cute things that I love now~! Also the font is the way it is because it’s almost Victorian like, which is my favourite era and I just wish I could go back into time. 🎀long story short I just fucking love Doll/Freckles🎪🌸
So I went on a date today and we went to a nice restaurant before going to the movies and I ordered the “iced grape popsicles” for dessert because I love grape Popsicles so why not right?…..so the waiter brings out the “iced grape popsicles” aND THEY WERE LITERALLY 3 FROZEN GRAPES ON STICKS…..I HAVE NEVER BEEN MORE OFFENDED IN MY LIFE…SINCE WHEN ARE 3 FUCKING FROZEN GRAPES IN A FUCKING VASE AN ACCEPTABLE SINGLE DESSERT ORDER..ITS NOT EVEN FROZEN GRAPE JUICE OR SOMETHING ITS LITERALLY JUST A 0.02$ GRAPE THAT WAS PUT ON A STICK THEN FROZEN…LIKE SOMEONE ACTUALLY WROTE THIS DOWN ON THE MENU THINKING “OH YEAH PEOPLE FUCKING LOVE COLD GRAPES” AND SOME OTHER ASSHAT SAID “BRAH. HEAR ME OUT, HOW ABOUT WE PUT THEM ON STICKS AND SERVE THEM IN A VASE WITH NOTHING ELSE” LIKE YOU COULDNT EVEN SERVE IT WITH A FUCKING SECOND FRUIT OR EVEN FUCKING LEAVES OR WHATEVER… IM SO MAD. FUCKING FROZEN GRAPES ON A STICK.
AND THEY WERENT EVEN SEEDLESS GRAPES…..
THAT LAST COMMENT IS WHAT DID IT. HOW DARE THEY